I'm overheating and this is my story
If you want to donate to keep my story alive heres my paypal
If you've ever had a fever it's not like that it's like worse
Imagine a sunburn for your insides and under your skin, so it's like that, so I'm able to walk through the wall now, I'm sweating
For an amazing reason I was born inside an Amazon warehouse ,now I'm touching a rock in order to get a new superpower everyday, today it's been internal fever, tomorrow I know what it's going to be because three weeks ago I was given the superpower by the rock to be able to identify what superpowers I will gain in future events,
It's not prophetic ability but I got that from a different rock touch day
Yesterday on top of getting the superpower I got mosquitos, they flew out from my cage, That's fucked honestly I don't know, I'm just a fly, just kidding, so the mosquitos kept biting everyone I know, this is bad if you don't stay inside the tote but the packages get in the way and I have sort stickers stuck to my eyes from all night long, but I ripped them off so now I lost my eyelashes
Tomrrow I'm getting new eyelashes, the store doesn't open until 5, I'm in a new time zone
My dad is called Walter
He was born in an Amazon warehouse too but it was a different one, It was called JAX2, I'm from DJX4, So they built a street called Blue Angels, and you can drive out of it
don't come near my dad, hes an assasin, I'm being dead arse for real
This is my story
Not to be fake with you but Im a cold blood killer
I was born in a little warehouse off the coast of Duval County Florida where the waters are cold and the sun is warm and on a normal sunny day I kept getting these powers after touching the same rock everyday and this wasn't happening to anyone else so you know what I did I kept touching it yeah of course I did even if the power was difficult to predict day to day this was a way to facilitate absolute complete control of all humanity, this was the stepping stone no pun in tendon but I've had the experience for a couple years now, I say couple but I mean six, this is what's real and I'm telling you about it now. This is the story of my life.
I was born during a war between two battling nations DJX4 vs DJX2 vs UPS Pritchard Hub vs Fedex vs UPS Baymeadows Hub, I know this is more than two but I have a different interpretation of numbers than the average person so this is to be deciphered by the reader, anyway we were bloodthirsty My family were the worst of it, I saw bloodshed and death, they hit my cousins with DIAD Vs and Zebra scanners until they saw brown or purple, it wasn't a good time for us but scanning those packages I just kept the days rolling by, that rock kept rolling too a lot like you would think of perhaps Jimmy Page or someone like that, but I'm turning the Page each day just to see a new tomorrow, so my dad was killing people and I was riding my bike just to deliver to the residentials when a Fedex express driver came to me and told me that there was something more to this life than we know about, he told me were on the same side as you may not understand, I said what do you mean, You are killing my cousins with Zebra scanners, he said listen baby they left us both out of the brotherhood, you're flexing out here I'm dying on route we aren't filing grievances, you dont know the first thing about the real world, For some reason I felt like I was comprehending, just teaching me like I was a little pupil or should I say us because I have a demon side, his name is Jr, I'm Sr these stand for Jarn and Soren, I'm Soren, I told him I think I know what you mean, we shook hands and had a thumb war and in this thumb war he turned me upside down as he turned my world upside down
Day after day I continued scanning packages dropping shit off at business that were closed, I got my ass kicked once or should I say arse assuming the reading is reading in english but I'm doing my best out here and yet I'm getting my butt (bottom) beaten and in the midst of this mess my dad messages me This shit sucks, I'm tired of this, I'm going crazy, I'm seeing red, I'm seeing crimson at this fucking point, not to swear just a quote, so I'm doing my thing and then my supervisor brings me some shit on a forklift and there's a rock buried underneath it, Don't know how it even got there to be unreal with you, not liek the engine more like in real life, and let me tell you this rock was shiny, it wasnt a crack rock, it was a igneous rock and it was smooth, I touched it like I never touched a rock before, within nanoseconds my life had changed I found a new profound different perspective to seeing my father, I saw colors like I never saw before, I knew what FedEx Tom meant by this, I was killing it in the warehouse that day but on my way home I stopped at circle k for a smoothy, turns out they never served smoothes there before in my life but I got what I wanted, so this rock had given me a special power that day of giving me exactly what I want out of life, "Fulfillment" Not like what kind of fulfillment they told you about when signing up for the job, because I never signed up for this I was bjorne into this lifestyle, I finally found the meaning of it
I became a very passionate worker that day I was shedding blue blood day after hour after minute after second after millisecond and whatever comes smaller than that, I felt small actually on that note because I was just a little gear in the giant collection of gears that turn and make the system move forward, but today I decided I wanted to make things go not even backwards but a little diagonal, I started rotating my position and pivoted to something much greater, this rock was consuming me a little bit but it turned out it was for the better, the next time I touched this rock wasn't the day after I touched it for the first time but I kept it with me, in the warehouse and I decided let's do this again, kind of like a drug you take once and think that you don't want to try it again for a while but this time it got me addicted, so when I touched it this next time I went outside and I was getting stormed on, as you may know in Duval County we suffer extreme weather conditions such as Tsunami and Earthquake, well the ground was crumbling beneath me shaking up Atlantic Blvd and then I took one look at the sky and said Stop doing this, all the cars stopped shaking and I knew what I was up against, from then on this just became the norm for me, It's just another day in my life, I could just freaking control the weather with my intent at this point, no doubt about it, and this never went away
Push come to shove I'm touching rocks everday my coworkers called me gay, I'm just being for realsies at this point I just kept touching that shit like no tomorrow, one day I got in my car and everything changed when I was driving on 295 I saw a package car going down to baymeadows, I thought this couldnt be for real he was sticking his leg out the truck, I thought to myself wtf your gonna get your foot taken off, this is florida
Apparently his name was Best Weston I never met a guy with a name like that before, I only know my bros from the warehouse John Rofl and John Question and their cousin John Normal, I even know guys like Casey Compete, T and G and Walker the Driver and his fucked up mom Quicktime Walker The Driver but Best Weston is a new one for me, so I call Rofl up like have you ever met a guy in browns with a sticking his foot out the driver door, Nope he says, Whatever this shit is bandanas and nachos, I'm just trying to get my stops off before its too late to see Barbenheimer in theaters, low and be held It's not even a real movie it's two of them, clearly I dont have time for that I got a cricket to feed at home so I'm in the chick fil a drive thru the kernan one not the queens harbor one and they just said I have a spider crawling up in the inside of my rav 4 like Ok what am i supposed to do about it Chillian, nothing I said to him I said that's cute what itd look like, then he said ummm im not sure sir so pull up to the next window, and theyre gonna give you your food, well they gave me the wrong order that night, once in a fuck up if im being capless and let me tell you I lost the cap because they put cheese on my shit, Never had a chicken n cheeser before but lets try it out, changed my life, I felt like I was in noob hell for a second
Wake up the next day feeling like a wizard, can't believe they named me Soren when I could've been called Jason, drank my bros under the table had a 50% beer called Steel Reserver, I got to work about 10 in the morning cuz I got a little arfed up from it and I'm just getting started, touched the rock well today it was some new shit, dad messaged me I just deleted a teamster from Pritchard I said what you mean dad, I saw his face before my eyes It was surreal, blew my speakers out on the way out to route that day, all just to learn my shit was a junk run thats what his face said to me, his name was Andrew Blessing, turns out hes got a contact named Andy Bless You off fort caroline cant believe what the fuck I'm hearing at this point, went home ate my biscuit I had three by the end of night just fucking starving but i left the milk out because I'm a fucking stressed out piece of work this week, just saw the face of the man my father killed and I'm just working to make the days pass by longer but whats really got me gripped is the rock I've been touching these past few weeks, fortunately it wasnt Best Weston because that guy sent me an important signal that day that I didnt pick up on until later
I'm losing my fucking mind I'm eating bread for days at this point all I got left in the house, at least until Circle K restocked cz Im banned from publix for washing the aisles with pesticides, Not gonna lie Publix Ron is riling me the fuck up these days since Ive been delivering his bullshit for him, He's got thirty nuulys a month at this fucking point one for each day the week, I dont envy the peeps at the ups store or whatever because I bet they get to scan 239 barcodes a year just dedicated to this fucker
Smile and wave
Drove by mayo clinic the other day and saw that fucking Best Weston guy again in a long truck I was going down WM Davis Like it was just another day checking up on my old as fuck cold as fuck killer Dad that wont stop asking me for fucking money like I make any working at fucking DJX4 anyway, well he flagged me down no joke bro had a fucking Flag in his truck I was like bro what is that He said what the fuck do you think, its a flag ever seen an american flag before, well heres one, That flag wasn't just any american flag it was all distorted g major version it was even ripple effect on it, I thought to myself this guys a cool ass badass, I need to get like him, The rock that day made it so that I dont get that hot in the van so I was cooling off a little more than usual that day, this is an essential treat when you work in Duval County FLorida so I just kept driving my way on but something picked me up his number and put it inside my phonecall, I checked my phonecall contacts list and saw Best Weston recently saved, plus it said he just posted a new post on his blog, my phonecall was distorted into having personal blogs for every contact I have saved, this was a new feature that the rock I think introduced to me and not just an update pushed by Google Pixel because I have an old one, it doesnt receive updates anymore and everyone ive asked with a samsung flip or a apple just said they dont get that, I was bewildered but thats besides the story, his blog post was really insightful, he talked about how enjoyful his work was as a community member, society member and neighborhood contributor, He even made a point of not living in an HOA, They don't even make neighborhoods without HOAs anymore even the trailerparks have a Park Czar these days, I'm just rolling around in agony scanning these fucking nothing labels with plastic bullcrap in them but that made me smile, I thought to myself, Soren youre just having a nice moment, everything is just gonna fuck itself over by the end of the day, you know what i mean? Well that wasnt the case, I went to bed feeling like I had tripped balls the night before, I had a euphoric glow cross over me above everything, My dad didn't even take any of my stupid paycheck today I just brought him mcdonalds, hopefully its gonna kill his stupid ass soon with the amount of LDL hes got in his system but something told me hes got a rock type situation too because his dumbass is built like a 80 year old at this point despite being in his 50s so all I did was laugh myslef to sleep
Three crashes in my district this week they didnt even fire anyone they just came to work with bruises for weeks and weeks, thinking is this just another unhealed trauma from the accident, No the managers were beating the blossoms out of these guys and gals I'm peeing myself thinking I got to be on my best behavior because theyll cut anyones throat in this cutthroat kitchen of a warehouse we live in, what did the rock have for me today Oh it's night vision, well this is fucking handy considering this bitch needs her Ryze Coffee box by 5 am, Not like dealership row on atlantic doesnt have 50 fucking 40000 gigawatt bulbs illuminating the road, well what this actually granted me is some fucking nightmare fuel Who was that guy standing on Abess at 2:21 am with a dart in his hand, he smiled and waved at my so calmly, youd think itd be some crazy fucker but it wasnt, much worse than that this guy fully seemed convinced that he knew who I was and I knew him, whats worse is I waved back, not to be paranoid but let me tell you about this man, He was wearing fuzzy booty slippy shoes like a stylish fashionista would, some really random shit he had shortish longish brown hair, Darker complexion but kinda white guy, seemed like hes been out in the sun a long time but who isnt in this city, I got his phonecall contact comitted to my phonecall his name was David Drip, figured this guy was related to Braden and Dax Drip the Drip bros as we call em at the building, I don't talk to them but Question is chill with Braden, Dax always did his own things like running over geese and getting hiccups at work for eating to fast or drinking ten coors banqets before work but anyway Davids blog said hes been digging for gold lately, shoveling piles of dirt behind Home Depot throwing his shit in the retention pond and walking home with the rest, apparently he lives three miles away too so I found that interesting, he said he trained over there so he knows every inch of the area like the back of Dax's hand, sad story behind that but i wont go into it
My dad called me Soren because he said Id be soarin past everyone in terms of intelligence, not true because I got a 50 on my OQ test which is Open source quotient, my dad told me IQ was fake so he had my mom take me to a private examiner for an intelligence test, OQ is allegedly a lot like IQ in scoring except you can host the tests yourself without a license because its an Open framework, I don't know what that means so I never thought more about it, well the night after seeing David Drip the rock gave me the ability to scale my OQ which means I can use multipliers against it, theres a certain system though, it all depends on my stop count for the day so for example I have 320 stops that scales it by 3.2 so I get like 175 OQ or something which is pretty decent, depends on the day though as some days theyll just have me throwing fucking packages around inside and to be true these are my worst days
Not to get the post office involved because theyre a neutral party in this whole equation but I got a letter in the mail from David when I woke up, Believe it or not we actually receive mail to our totes, if you can cut out a slot they can fit it in, were all sleeping here on the packages day and night so Im opening the letter up and he invites me to some bullshit at the beaches Tells me meet him on lemon st and were gonna walk down to beach blvd I pull him up on my phonecall, We arent making phonecall phone calls in the building because of the Fair o day field they executed over the propety but you can actually crawl down the nets outside and get some signal, We talked for a little bit I told him I work everyday all day and I live in the building, of course he knows that cuz the Drip bros work there with me but he told me I can actually make a fortune and by that he means fortunate life for myself, at this point I didnt have the prophetic vision power yet, that day the rock just made it so I'm a natural wasp repellant, really helpful with all the fucking red wasps out here but I'm thankful for what im given day to day, of course I didnt mention the rock to him but for whatever reason in the moment I had this crazy thought that maybe the digging had somtehing to do with this rock getting in there, and that maybe he knew about it, but anyway I agree to meet him and sneak out for the day and we get a coffee and chat, nothing abnormal, he did ramble a lot about crypto currency I thought he had pennys for brains but hes not anywhere near a dumb guy, maybe his priorities were mixed up coinsidering hes walking three miles away every night to dig in the dirt for gold, kind of a Mr Krabs type character if youre familiar, hes one of the featured characters in the SpongeBob toys that get torn out of the prime paks sometimes
Mound Blue try to pull a fast one on me at the building the next day trying to steal the papers out of my tote, we use them to trade so I kicked his bloody arse into the floor lamp, thank fucking rock it didnt break the lamp because I've been using that shit to write day and night any time i get a moment at home to cool off but I did put a big blue on his shoulder and he could barely scan for weeks sorry not sorry, turned the 96.9 up on my radio that night so nobody could get any sleep I was fucking mad as shit Fedex already pistol whipped Vicky Trademark with her own prime pistol on Monday and I wasnt trying to get caught up in that not saying she didnt deserve it shes gone for days at a time on route, Saw Best Weston off San Pablo again loading bullshit onto a dolly, I actually stopped for a few minutes this time to get a better word in, I wanted to tell him his blog was really cool the past week cuz he was talking about all the cool fucking neighobrs hes been talking to and I've never talked to a fucking neighbor in my life that wasnt a pitbull with 2 inch gnashers and drool down the fucking driveway but some rock feature was telling me this wasnt a universal thing and It wasnt common knowledge to be able to "read" these "blogs" so I refrained and reframed the conversation like Hey whove you been chatting with lately? got some good insight into the community that way though hes gonna give me a call soon he told me So he knew I had his number at least
I saw it flash before my eyes
Malcom Trapp one of our managers in the warehouse came and tore up the place like some shit was about to go down Opinion Shane got fired which i couldnt believe I never thought id see the day that would happen but looks like it was real this time, Best Weston and I had been talking on the phone while im on route but had to keep it a secret because Im not trying to have the same fate, the power the rock gave me today was raging bloodthirst I knew I was changing my ways deep inside but couldnt be like my fucking shithead father Walter if i knew what was best for me but I couldnt stand for more of this sensless violence so I decided i had to fight back, I had my prime pistol loaded with backup and wasnt going to let anybody cross me today thats when I stopped at my apartments the same time a Upser was there this was a new guy, his name was Jeremiah Go pretty nice guy, all be it he had a metric shittonne for the Apartments out there at the beach today I was shocked, he gaved me the gate codes for the rest of my apartments which was so kind of him, I was ready to shoot the daylights out of him but couldnt find a good reason to
Next thing you know Fedex Tom pulls up, this guy turned my world upside down so mad respect to mr tom but I had my guard up like never before I had adrenaline pumping through my veins, he saluted me today and told me you know what youre out here for bud I said yessir but couldnt make heads or tails of the sentiment in the moment, next thing you know Dad calls me Im livid at this point already with the shit effect the rock gave me I tell him Im not driving all the way down to Middleton park just to help you with some trivial bullshit after work today bad enough he went straight out of JAX2 into cypress village in the first place im thinking to myself you have people for that, well its some kind of emergency so Im pumped and ready to get the f over there I dont even care about my stops at this point, its a showdown now
Without a moment to stop and think im already down wm davis rushing to my dads spot like Whats going on Walter he said there was a carrier up there out for blood and they had people fighting on the street no this motherfucker wants me to run Errands for him like go pick his scription up from Walgreens which is still up on the northside because hes useless I tell him your legs work fine you have three fucking cars I have over 500 pieces today we fell from the same tree how do you not know this shit, Well it escalates into violence even more senseless than id ever experienced before, he throws one of his antique chinese vases at me one of our family heirlooms we found in the building years ago when we were just starting out so over 15 years old now that you can only get on Alibaba these days because they arent dropshipping these anymore thru Amazon and he hits me right in the head stunning me for a moment, This all happened not because of the medicine but because I told him im not stopping at Publix on the way It's too much time for me to go to any of the ones except where Publix Ron is at and im banned from there to this day so its a no go, I draw my prime pistol and im ready to kill my dad its a crazy situation I see my reflection in the gun my whole life and heritage is flashing before my eyes, I think to myself Soren do you really want to do this think about everything that youve lived for think about your family and your job but my bloodthirst is getting the best of me, My dad is stunned his eyes are popped out like a cartoon character probably from his high blood pressure and I dont know what i was thinking in the moment but I fired a warning shot, I yell to my dad youre a fucking lunatic you know that Walter, he says Youre the worst fucking son Ive had in a minute and I had some terrible fucking sons in my life, I tell him Fuck you I hate you youre perfectly capable of doing this shit yourself im starving and slaving for nothing and this is how you try to run my life because of your misery then I got the fuck out of there because I knew someone would immediately be alerted, dad runs out after me swearing at me I couldnt make out what he was even saying because I drove out of there so fast thank god I didnt have any stops in there that day
On the way out Best Weston is doing his mayo clinic pickup on worral and i stop in there like dude I dont have a lot of time left right now but my dad and i about killed each other, theres too much violence in this world My dad hates you guys, youre among the nicest dudes ive had the pleasure of knowing as ive gotten up to speed around here, he tells me its true theres too much violence, why dont you have a smoke with me and calm down dont worry about the stops just take a minute to yourself, its the human thing to do so he hands me a newport and we smoke em together and were just talking about the hard times, he says even with such a good community there are a lot of things going wrong around us, its all about being in the right place at the right time, I thought about the rock and thought about what kind of luck i had had with it and how nobody else was getting up to what i was getting up to, its the same with all people in this world everyones in their right spot at the right moment, waving him goodbye getting back in the van I took a few minutes to meditate on the events previously unfolded and then turned the radio up as loud as i could back out to the beaches
Get my stops off its getting dark out Im seeing a lot of activity in the night mostly animals and whatnot I looked in the eyes of this raccoon pulling up behind one of the plazas on Beach near the dumpsters thinking to myself dint GFL Pick the trash up already today but theres so much garbage piled up and i look in the eyes of this little creature thinking Im not too different from you pal, just scraping up to get by and out here all night like its a cold cold world, I wonder what your dad is like buddy, then another bigger racoon came up from behind him and helped him with a piece of some kind fo fried meat that was in a bag and shared it with the smaller racoon it made me think of the good times with my dad and made me think of the differences too with how mean and cruel Walter can really be with me, at the end of the day were still just animals we feel love and pain we feel rage and hunger and we try to tough through it all I look back down at my prime pistol in my prime holster and im reflecting on what went down earlier in the day Im so tired i thought to myself, good thing im almost done i cant wait to get back and do some therapuetic writing I even got a candle from the building the other day so I have some nice aromatherapy to soothe me but its a pumpkin spice beeswax candle and it smelled so horribly strong it reminded me of doing a delivery for Yankee candle which i havent done in years, it soothed me right to sleep though and my tote was really cozy it felt like the bloodthirst from the rock really wore off and I realized i was gaining control and conscience of my life like i never had before
Counting out the hours
The entire company received a message from Beckett Tand that hes stepping down as head of logistics Everyone celebrated the good news with a drink and good riddance ceremony unfortunately Carol Ruin is assuming position as new head so thats fucked when already were slaving away and getting the daylights beaten out of us and nobody has faith in this lady, I touched the rock today and experienced an increased sense of empathy I was feeling what was happening around me in realtime John Rofl had a deep sorrow within him while John Question was vibing, Mr Rocksalt and Airport Brody were still dreading their tonight and I was so gone of my own emotion and consumed by what was being felt around me, when we packed our shit up I started getting ready for my route Best Weston had been posting pictures to his blog of his latest endeavours looks like he will be staying on his Mayo Clinic route I was heading out to San Pablo today to do those stupid neighborhoods with the stuck up bitches living in them Naders pest control blocking the road and all not like I cant do worse since I get awared Prime Tokens for worst road blockages which we've been trading for imported snacks in the warehouse everyday
By the time I was at probably my tenth stop I was feeling really differently about humanity in general I know these people don't feel anything at all I was feeling what they were feeling it was like I was delivering to empty glass bottles there was no meaning in any of it, I was thinking for a moment maybe its the money maybe its the environment maybe its all of this maybe its the community, I don't think its the comunity we've got some good folk out here who really care about one another and it shows not in their words but in their actions to, all of a sudden a UPSer pulls up on me It's not Best Weston I can sense him down the street no it was a new guy, his name was Pontus Persson he nods at me and I shout to him yo whats up, he says same old same old how you doing out here, I said same here bro I hate this neighborhood, hes saying hes never out here doesn't know the area that well hes just covering I'm thinking oh Best Weston must be taking a day off, hope hes ok turns out Pontus is having a bad day out here hes not liking the customers either He told me hes got a on call pickup too I dont know anything about picking up we dont do that, he says he had to take in about 30 boxes from this one guys house and he was a real dickhead I told him im not even surprised knowing the people out here, they can be real stuck up you know and hes like yeah man the closer to the beach you get the snobbier these bitches are Im like yeah dude it sucks. Hope you have a good one man see you around he said see you around brother, I got back into the van and went to my next few stops kept seeing him around the neighborhood we smiled at each other it was a nice experience even though I had to deliver two whole patio furniture sets to this one ladys house which I just threw in the yard, I think the rock was controlling my emotions a little bit
Heading home ive bunched up 56 Prime tokens ready to feast tonight stoped at whataburger anyway even though I knew it would take forever it always does, still I was craving it plus they were serving breakfast so I was looking forward to that and it was good too, the girl in the drive thru was nice to me usually its this mean guy it felt like she was having a rough night so I tipped her 10 bucks then i got back to the warehouse and Rofl was still awake so I asked if he wanted to go take our tokens to the Hole and get some extra grub I even brought him some whataburger to share he was like yeah dude so we went and we picked up some pretzels some chocolate some sodas we got back to our totes and chilled for a bit I felt his sadness but i also felt his gratitude for being there for him and I felt like I was mirroring it I felt the same way, I started to open up to him about asking him if he knows much about this rock thing, I told him the rock has been giving me powers everyday since ive been touching it regularly, he was like that sounds crazy I asked him if he wanted to try it I told him what powers it had given me up to this point, I really reiterated how its different everyday I cant even really tell what its going to be each time, at least not at this point, I showed him the rock it was smooth and cold and grey it had some little speckles in it, some bits of color where it was lighter or more vivid that you can see, small indents but mostly smooth all around, he gave it a touch for a second or two I asked him to let me know how hes feeling by the morning he said alright bro, I dont feel anything yet but Ill let you know, next day he didnt seem to feel much different it sounded like and it made me feel a little crazy I told him that too but hes a good friend he seemed to understand, were all losing our minds in here anyway day in day out
In the morning I got up like normal I got another letter from David Drip he wants to meet for lunch I told him I cant really cuz im working but maybe i can take a break and meet you so we went to Twin Peaks and I had a cold beer called the Yeti Pussy sounds disgusting but a beautiful delicious amber ale I got a little fucked up but it chilled me out for my next few stops not like I'm a worse driver than anyone out here also had 40 wings and sucked them straight down like it was nothing dont even know how much time passed but I made everything in time anyway even got to all my business while they were open except 10 of them better than the average day I suppose might be cuz its a bank holiday I saw davids blog he found some new treasure near the home depot he mentioned at lunch he was finding some good shit lately hitting some golden as he calls it Not gold but golden, he didnt elaborate too much I dont really pry too hard I feel a little inside myself when it comes to other people but it looks like he found some cool stones out there I was a little interested so next time I see him im gonna ask if he can bring some for me to see or I might write him a letter, I would have told him over my phonecall but I feel a little weird talking about it through my phonecall
Apparently Carol Ruin wants to cut 40 routes in our city which isnt that much considering how many weve got just hoping our routes wont be affected as I kind of really like what im on and dont want have to go out to some trash like Debutante but im not worrying about it too much, I know a lot of people in the building were worrying a lot of theme were chilling too about it, kind of a mixed response honestly I wonder what it will turn out like in the end and just try to keep my head up about it since ive got a lot of other shit on my mind right now, Dad called me said he heard the news and hes wishing the best for me and apologized for the other day, he said he made it to get his prescription himself and felt refreshed about it and gave me really heartfelt apology I said im sorry too dad it shouldnt have gotten to that point I really regretted it it was really insane of me to react like that I told him I dont know whats going on with me lately, just feeling really stressed and worked up, he told me if I get my route cut I can always go work at BJs as a meat cutter and I told him I dont like seeing animals get cut up if i dont have to and he called me a girl as a joke to humiliate and demean me, My dad can be really misoynist some times but I know hes part of the older generation where that was normal and its difficult to unlearn that, I dont think he means any real harm by it though, just trying to joke around with me it cleared the air a bit I felt a lot better our relationship then even if he can drive me insane a lot of the time, he had me really thinking about my livelihood though and what other positions I could take on in life, I wondered what Beckett Tand was doing now that hes stepped down